What am I suppose to do now?! U know what, I really do not know what to do in life now. It just comes to a time when u don't know what else to look forward to and also where else in life you can lead and turn to.
Honestly, I think I just feel that life is all about living it to the most and best of your abilities, living life to the fullest as well as going all out for Kosenrufu. During the past few days, I've been thinking real hard about what others say and I do agree to it that there are times when we have to really live and let live. But, you have to agree with me that there are just some things that u cannot. You try, but u just can't.
Well, enough of all those mushy stuff. Here's some updates in my current situation. Mak Koh has already left Singapore and she has gone back to UK. I'll definitely miss her lots. Koh is also currently in Kota Tinggi. All that's left in Boon Lay now is Papa, Mummy and Ah Jon. Popo is gone, both sisters have moved out. No more maid. Kinda sad though when u think of it, cos everyone goes there to visit the family and mostly is to visit Popo. Now that she's gone, I dunno whether will there still be people who'll go over. I honestly do not think so, but I'm sure that the sisters will go back once in a while la. They have their part to do as a family member as well. I really won't wanna see the whole family just vanquish like that. No no no. They are like my family too. TJ is also with Jie Joanna now, no more doggy at home for the rest to play with. Unless Jie Joanna goes overseas la. Then TJ will go back to Jurong. I really miss the times when I was younger and was staying at 350 Clementi. Nothing beats that!! Nothing in life can erase all that has happened back there. The memories are still fresh. From running across the road and getting whacked after that, to eating toasted bread with butter and suger and a glass of Milo every morning, to playing badminton with Ah Jon downstairs, to sending both sisters up the school bus every morning and much much more.
All that's left now are MEMORIES!!! During the wake, I cried so hard until I felt that my lungs were going to burst. Mummy and Heidi were there too. But they didn't shed as much tears as me! I had almost a fraction of my life with this family. Haiz....come to think of it, I really feel like crying so hard and let it all out. But I just can't. I'm still sad though, but I'm not that affected till the extend I can't move on in life la. That's definite.
Life has changed to a certain extend for me already. Things are not exactly the way it has been planned though, but i'm adapting to the changes. Well, I think quite a lot has been said, I shall share a bit more in future la. Type and type until tired le! Hahaha
