When things have to end, they have to end... A lot has happened for the past few days and months. And it has also been a while since i last blogged. Well, lemme just update you on what has just recently happened.
Over the past few days to a month, work has been hell... I'm starting to hate work. And mark my words, i'm definitely gonna leave this office real soon! As soon as this person steps on my tail, i'm outta there~! And the CC can take care of itself for all I care... No one is indispensable... So there should be no reason why no successors can be found. Furthermore, with my current situation, all the more I don't even wanna think or talk abt work! Popo needs me, and I think this is the last time or opportunity I can grab hold off and spent every time I have with her (which is already not too long left... =..(
Life is so full of ups and downs... I still remember the days when I was staying in Clementi Ave 2, when I was still small, Jie Joanna and Jessica were still in Raffles Girls Pri Sch, their green school bus would arrive in the afternoon to pick them up for school and both Ah Jon and I will send them downstairs together with Popo to their school bus and see them off. After which most of the time we'll either go to the playground or the market area to buy things.... Those were the days man! Mummy was working in NTUC at that time too. Papa was working too... but cannot remember wat la. Then I still remember when I was there, I was studying in PAP just 2 blocks away from where I lived. The school at that time was using wooden stools. Hahaha! How I wish I can turn back time just to be there to see how and what were things like before I left the house. When I grew older, I moved back to my own house in Jurong West and that was where I studied in the PAP near my house too. When I was in Pri Sch, I studied in Rulang Pri, which is the one just at the market area approx 20 mins walk from home.
Back in Clementi, I can remember every morning, Popo will ask me how many slices of bread I would like to have for breakfast in Hainanese and also whether I wanna drink Milo or not. I will then reply that I wanna eat 2 slices of bread with sugar and butter and also a glass of Milo. Popo will never reject my request and the breakfast will alwiz turn out very nice. I still remember that Popo will fold the bread in half and the bread will alwiz be toasted till slightly darker brown, crispy and delicious! But sadly... I can never have any of that anymore! I don't even have a chance to make it for her...
I love the cooking too! Food is alwiz very delicious! Peranakan foods like 'Pongteh', 'Itek Tim', 'Chap Chye' and lots more...DAMN NICE!!! Everytime I think back abt the past, I wanna cry... No one can understand what Popo has gone through except Popo herself... Koh and Mak Koh has shared with me quite a lot about the current situation and i'm beginning to understand how much the family has changed since the day Popo has taken ill. I shan't comment much as this is something which i'm least bothered now. I'm only thinking and praying for Popo that she doesn't suffer when she leaves us.
Just something I would wanna say to Popo for now: "Popo, like what Mak Koh said before, if you have to leave us, go... Pls don't suffer when you leave, that's all. Don't think so much too, it's high time that you rest and ease your mind. All that has to be done, is already done. Now is the time for you to rest and go whenever you want to go. I learned from Mama that you wanted to be with Papa in Senja. Don't worry, I'll go all out to Shakubuku Koh. Now that Koh has learned abt Nichiren Buddhism, as soon as she has enshrined the Gohonzon, I will personally ensure that you can and you will be with Papa. This I promise you."
