Hmm...doubts? I dunno how come i've been feeling weird. Is it bcos of him? I think so...sometimes i dunno whether i'm actually happy...Well, on one hand, i am, cos he's super sweet, very honest, damn caring, loving. But on the other, i'm kinda wary abt the things i say, cos sometimes he gets misunderstood. Hehehe. Well, he takes good care of me, making sure that's i'm ok, eating well, not sick and so on. Sweet... = )
But..................................................i don't actually have that oogly googly feeling when he calls. Is that normal? As in, firstly, he doesn't have a hp, cos it dropped from the Army tunner when he was alighting!! -_-" Argh...so from that time on, he doesn't have the time or shud i say the buckaroo to buy another one. So that means he doens't sms me. He calls me almost every afternoon, during his break times, in the office. He's allowed to use the phone for personal use, but of cos not too long la. So for that, i'm kinda happy le. Though he doesn't sms, he calls often. Like most prob 3 times a day? Yeah, ard there la. He's working hrs are like 9-7pm. Sometimes he finishes by 8 plus. Depending on work load. Well, he's gonna ORD soon in 3 mths. After that then he's gonna work. Which, according to him, is already secured a job le. And as soon as he gets a job, he'll have things to pay off, things to settle first before doing/buying anything for leisure.
At first i tot i might not have enough time to meet up with him, cos as u know, guys from the army most of the time doesn't come home. But as for him, whenever he finishes work after 8pm, he'll stay in. So 1 week, he only goes home, once? twice? But now that i'm ard, he goes home. Sometimes meets me before he goes home. Oh ya, haha...he stays near me! Just 15 mins away from my place. Hehehe. Finally someone who stays near my place. Muahahaha. Take 98 can liao.
*sigh*...
One thing i'm really happy abt is that he alwiz tries to compromise with me, as in, do things the way i like. Just in order to make me happy. He likes to say ,"You happy can liao". Grr... Well, it can also mean another thing. Like giving in? Cos maybe someone from an Eng speaking home, is brought up differently. Like me, till now, i sometimes cannot adapt to his lifestlye. Well, truthfully, there are many things i cannot see eye to eye with. But on the account that he makes the effort to adapt to my way of living, i should also in turn adapt to his lifestlye.
Bottomline, am i happy? Yeah i think i am...but it takes time. Cos there will be many things i'm gonna go thru with him along the way. Many many many ups and downs...Super a lot ok! Well, i won't mention them here. Kinda confi. Gonna go for a chalet with him and his bro later, its his family's thingy. He ask me to come along (^_^). He even told his mum abt me le...Argh...PRESSURE!! *bleahx* Will be home only on Sun night. During the day there's a Gohonzon Conferment ceremony at Tampines. So from ECP i'll be going there straight. Keegan Kor, Auntie Sherley and Auntie Jenny Santoso will be getting their Gohonzons. So happy for them!! Gambate!!
