Its over, its over now, move over, its my turn now!
7:00pm, lovely evening
Time for the caterpillar to crack out of its cocoon and break into a new environment as a Butterfly...
Hehehe! 'Chim' right. Well, my new life is now available to different aspects. My once called Baby is gone. My previous blog states why. But its also an opportunity for me to carry on my dream. He was one of the reason why i wanted to stay in Singapore. But now that we've broken up, i can go over to Australia w/o worries.
Come to think about it. I still have a tincy wincy bit of feeling for him lingering inside. Dunno why. But i have to tell myself that i have to move on in life. There's so many things out there waiting for me to reach out to. I have tolerated what i needed to tolerate, said what i needed to say, tell him whatever i wanted to tell. Can i say that i've wasted my time on him? No, i don't think i can. But since we started this relationship, all the way till now, there've been times when i feel sad, unhappy, and knowing this would be the ending, i could have let go a long time ago. But everytime i keep feeling that there's room for improvement. Argh...its so tormenting. Yet so unfair. Damn...
Never mind. A new leash of life. My cousins being there for me once again! And so is my family. Mummy actually said nice words of encouragement to me. Hehehe, like she alwiz does.
Mj, just wanna let u know that this few months or weeks that we've been together has been one of the best times i had in my life. A feeling of excitement everytime we're gonna meet, heart beating fast everytime u call and so on...Will miss those times! Was actually proud of u being my boyfriend, being in Taekwondo, teaching little kids and their parents, juggling between work, school and me. Alwiz smiling and happy whenever we're together. Thanks for all that you've done for me. Will alwiz keep the Forever Friends Teddy with me, and wear that necklace as and when i can. Remembering u. Thanks so much for being able to contribute in the change of my life. *muacks* Though we're only together for a short while, but i could feel the importance of me everytime u do something, you're constantly thinking of my well-being. Wondering whether you've hurt me and so on. Very thoughtful. I'll really miss ya lots. Like what u said earlier, Fate will bring us together someday. If not, we'll be good frenz. Ya? Do keep in contact.
to be cont... (Aww man, its so hard to type this!)
