Sad, i really dunno leh. Should i feel this way? I just came home from work not long ago. Took a train home from work. The train was packed as usual. Saw many couples in the train though. And i felt all weird inside of me. Dunno how come suddenly. Was just looking at them. Should i say admiring? Hmm... Baby is alwiz in school, and finishes at 6pm. Sometimes earlier, sometimes later, no one knows. Something like own time own target. Thinking abt them being able to meet up as and when they want to, whenever they need to, and go wherever they wanna go, makes me feel the pinch. I'm unable to do that. Somehow or rather, i think its just jealousy. And honestly, i really dunno how much of that i can take. Really. Its damn painful when relatives ask me where my boyfriend, or partner is. Cos there were times i had family gatherings, and my cousin's bf and gf were all there, except mine. Its either Baby's working, or schooling. Most of the time working. And i kept telling them that he's working, that's y he's unable to come. And it really hurts in there when i say that. Grr...
I totally understand Baby's situation really. Its not like i'm complaining. But its like sometimes i sms, and i kinda know that u haf the time to reply, but u don't. Or maybe i'm just assuming la. I dunno. Else, i don't get or maybe get a few sms from u, and don't get or maybe get a calls from u. Haiz. Like sometimes i dunno wat to expect lor. Everyday is a new challenge. Getting more and more exciting by the day.
Haiz...I dunno how to continue le. Lemme rest first. Getting all emotional now. *bleahx* =P
